Sunday, August 27, 2006
This is a scene that i really wanted to paint 10 years ago but never got around to it. I started this tonight and was afraid to stop in case i wouldn't finish it lol... i wish i had more time, so i can learn to be patient and refine this painting.
i don't think it's actually finished.. i may work on it some more later in the week but here it is for now.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
I have been troubled by various life events lately, work, friendships, people and being unsure of whether i have the strength to cope with myself. I think my grandmother is dying and feeling my dad's sadness reminds me of how one day, i too would be faced with this situation all over again. They say that the ultimate fear is of death but if you knew you were going to die, would you be afraid? And if you were not afraid, would you then have the courage to face life forever?
it makes me sad to think that a part of me is dying in my grandmother but someone said, if we never died, we'ld be stuck here forever. And in a strange way, it made me look forward to that day when i leave this world. it would be ironic to be reincarnated again but i hope if i did get reincarnated again, that i would find art and love.
This collage.. "let me love, that I myself may be healed of all sorrow". It's about how i feel seeing people who are unhappy and wanting so much to love their sorrow away, because they are just a part of me as i am, to myself. The wings are made from ephemera but white doesn't scan well and so the subtle print from the ephemera isn't showing through the scan.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Sometimes there are things that aren't talked about because it's not the kind of thing people want to know, and yet there is such a desperate need to let someone know. A silent desperate plea for help , a realization that you are drowning and that this is one time you cannot help yourself out of the despair. You watch helplessly as the last glimmer of hope in you gets smaller and smaller and the fear that it might wink out, yet at the same time you hope that if it winks out, you might finally feel some relief. What keeps you going from day to day is the faint hope that perhaps if someone knew, they'ld love you anyway no matter what.
This picture is the story about the little child inside many of us who at some time in our lives have suffered a great sadness and isolation. It is about the friend who ended it all, and it is about friend who survived because someone came along and gave them a hand. It is about the unconditional love that would heal all hurt and it is about the acceptance, forgiveness and understanding that comes when we love. It is about that smile, that hug, that hello that prevented that light from winking out... it is about self worth without conditions and meaningful friendships.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Saturday, August 12, 2006
It's raining again.. was just feeling a little like this collage this morning.. feeling unmotivated today. One of those days where maybe waking up at 7 am wasn't such a good idea... maybe i should crawl back into bed.
Hope everyone else is having a creative sunday. There was a discussion lately on a yahoo stamping groups about lost stamping mojo.. actually i am starting to feel a bit guilty about not using my stamps lately but if i'm not motivated in that direction, i know better than to try. it usually ends with frustration. It's good to do different things every now and then. I think maybe we get stuck in a particular pattern of thinking/creating and the creating process loses it's empowerment. It's good to do something completely different like maybe altered art or something. If you have to, cleaning really gives the contrast of what you would rather do and it might kick start the mojo LOL.
i took a picture of my disaster area (craft table).. I have to clean it if i want to stamp. Painting collages is more forgiving that stamping when u get smudges.
I can't believe i made it through this week. With various people being off sick and extra work coming in, i thought that if anyone piled one more thing on me, i was going to walk out the door. But i didn't LOL. I just kept thinking how the weekend would be here soon and i'ld get to paint something.
So the something turned out to be this..... i guess it's a reflection of what the week has been like and amidst all the chaos, remaining true to that spark of hope and clarity, not succumbing to the chaos.
Meanwhile, my craft area looks like it's been hit by a bomb. Something about painting... it is as though the whole table imploded or something LOL and i've got paint all over the sleeves of my pyjamas... maybe i'll take a photo of it tomorrow haha :o)
Saturday, August 05, 2006
this thing cracks me up everytime i look at it. Dot this is your new doll ROFL.. sorry about the bad sewing, i told you i couldn't sew but he's one of a kind. He is Snuckles, Puffy Chick's cousin LOL. I am so proud of my bad sewing, i couldn't wait to post it on my blog haha... i'm also sending you the scary doll i made before this one.. that one will be a surprise LOL.
P.S i am not responsible for any loss of limbs during postal transit due to my bad sewing ROFL
okay someone just said he's the red rooster mascot.. lol
now that there are 2 pieces of artwork with the same character.. i think i better give her a name. LOL How about Queenie Noname and her loyal sidekick Puffy chick? hehe i can see a whole line of merchandise.. handbags, toys, tshirts, mugs.. ROFL... yes i still have the flu.
Friday, August 04, 2006
In my semi-delirious state from the flu, i thought i would try out a collage. Thanks Natalie for the background instructions!!! i had a lot of fun with this one. I also tried making an altered dolly yesterday but i think he scares me LOL.. so i am going to give dolly making another go.. maybe i'll post a picture later ...
time for some food... a starving artist needs fuel some time, although i don't know if you would call chicken nuggets food LOL.. yea don't worry i've got the flu, who knows what i'm on about.