Collage Painting - Surrendering

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So you were there but not here
Almost in the door but not fully
Ready for it but not totally
Full of conviction but not enough
All your jumping gear on but still on edge

Charged up with faith but completely faithless

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You Surrender but only this much

helpless in your holpelessness

You hold onto yourself while trying to let go

When will you understand

that there is nowhere to go to

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When will you stop trying to go somewhere

as though you were separate and foreign

Tearing yourself into two

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Is it not so simple

to accept your Self

And dissolve into yourself.

You are never more yourself than Now.

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